Hallmark, Shmallmark

Best card I have ever received (and trust me, I have received some pretty awesometastic cards) is from my boyfriend and it's by "Coffeehouse."

[Front:]
Just before
you go
to bed
tonight,
look out
your window...
See that
one little star
shining down
just
for
you?

[Inside:]
Every time
it twinkles,
it's me
saying
I love you,
and
I miss you,
and I can't wait
until
You're Here
with
me
again.

*Melts* :) Thanks to my babe, and thank you Coffeehouse for making a great card that suits us so well. We have this strange but beautiful thing between us about the moon and stars.

I know my friend Kerri would absolutely love this :)

Anyway, that's all for now... I promise I'll blog something longer and not so directly related to my love life, soon.

Mazel Tov!

Oh and P.S. I am ecstatic. For practically the entire month I've been trying to make a very huge purchase and with that came a lot of stress, doubts, planning, etc. I want the world to know I thank my mother for her fierce bitch attitude because without her, this all would not have been possible and I would not have saved as much as I could've. I am ashamed to have doubted her from the beginning. I forget that she's been a bargain and business genius for most of her life. Times like this, I am not so afraid to "turn out like my mother." In fact, all of her good qualities I hope people see in me as well. Cheers to you, Mama!

P.P.S. Rest in Peace, Heath Ledger. The whole thing saddens me everytime I think about it. I was actually looking for the original version of "Can't Take My Eyes Off of You" by Frankie Valli today and came across the short clip of Ledger singing it in 10 Things I Hate About You, which is one of my favorite movies of all time and also the very first time I fell in love with Heath Ledger. I almost cried when I listened to it.

It was absolutely surreal; when, ironically, right at the end of my Advanced Acting class, one of my classmates received several texts from different people all reporting the actor's death. This was a few moments after they discovered the body in his SoHo apartment (eerie that I just passed that building recently). Tired, coffee & food-deprived and extremely out of it, I laughed and thought it was a joke. I then started to worry and was heart broken when I read it online. He was beautiful, had a wonderful singing voice and talented. It's really depressing thinking about it, but I hope the best for all of his loved ones.

Extracted thought: I hope that when I pass, it'll be a really huge deal.

2007 Absentee "Ballad"

If people were curious about yours truly, they'd know nothing and probably give up if they were to look for me through blogs in '07. I posted one rant on pop culture "and such," and before that a small tidbit about my love life at the end of '06... but that's about it. Oops!

I've spoken to quite a few people and it seems that the consensus on 2007 is that it was a "bad year." I agree with this because I feel I ignored the better half of me for most of the year (i.e. I took a long break from pushing myself harder as far as employment opportunities go, I did not go out and do things for myself as much as I could/should have, and I barely upgraded my closet!) On the other hand, I do not agree that it was all bad because I did one very, very important thing: I fell in love.

I fell in love towards the beginning of '07 and the rest of the year has been spent maintaining that love, growing and learning. Lots of learning. The man responsible for all of this moved in with me sometime towards the end of the winter season and from there, I gave up much of my life and interests creating a strong foundation for this very-much-worth-it new interest. Admittedly, there were some bumps that made me miss single life but I would not trade in one moment. You all know how I feel about regretting things- I simply don't believe in it!

And this brings us here. After my month long trip to Houston (which meant a month away from my hubby), I found myself again mostly with the help of my sister, my mom and most certainly, him. We would talk on the phone every night and something changed during those phone calls. I fell in love again. I fell for him, harder than ever... now that's a feeling I'm glad I endured a whole year of learning things the hard way... which, in retrospect, is probably the best way to learn about true love. At the risk of sounding like a complete sap and/or braggart, I must say I have the best catch in all of the cosmos.

Throughout everything, he has been determined to show me that he is what I've been searching for these past few years. I was one of those girls who gave myself a time frame- "Oh, I'll start really looking and actually find him when I'm at least 25." I was blown over when I found him a few years before my planning and I suppose that's why people tell you over and over again, "it'll happen when you least expect it." When I first met him, I was iffy about it. I thought he embodied nothing I was looking for in a potential mate- everything from my attraction to him down to his sense of humor. But we all know first impressions- especially over the phone- are rarely great at enforcing judgments. On November 5th, 2006, I agreed to letting him take me out and it must've been the stars (might I add, were pretty bright for a New York City winter night) and the full moon we had our first kiss under. Magic on West 4th street.

He has changed my life in so many ways that so many people can only imagine. I am grateful for his presence and above it all, I am so happy that I have someone to pine over when I'm not with him. I miss him every second he's not with me by my side and for once, I know there is at least one person who has me on his mind as his first priority. You have no idea how amazing it feels. It's been over a year, and his hugs and kisses still melt away the chaotic world I live in or the chaotic world my mind creates sometimes. I'm so happy to be starting another year with him and this time, I'm re-emerging to continue into fabulousness.

We have finally come to the understanding how important personal space is (I'm sure you know that's quite difficult when you live with the person) and how important our mere physical energies are to one another's daily grind. He is my very best friend, as most people nowadays don't do a great job at keeping my trust but I thank every single circumstance, good and bad, for bringing me closer to him. In the next couple of years, look out for an invitation to the coolest wedding ever! Haha :)

So, that's the update on where I was for 2007 and a little bit on where I'm headed for 2008... that's what this blog's been created for. Stay tuned!

Thanks for letting me share this with you :)

I love you, D.

Movement

Well folks, I finally made the transition from Xanga and Myspace blogging to what I feel is the "real deal." I suppose this will be a documentation of my life after the year 2007, and then some. The novelty of college life has worn off, the anticipation of going out into the "real world," grows.

Personally, I haven't written many, if not any, proper and entertaining entries since my pre-20's. In my opinion, everything I wrote about before then was pretty insightful, interesting and moving. Now I can't seem to put anything of that caliber onto the screen or even a piece of paper. I suppose I got bored of it or something... I don't know. I feel everything I write about now, someone else would have touched upon that topic. I read endless blogs of others and they all just seem the same. It becomes dull after a while.

Yet another reason I have not written because of the drama I did not feel like entertaining. However, I've been holding all too much inside, I'm getting too old to care- and damn it, I miss blogging!

Anyway, I've come to my senses and realized that if I wanted to write, who the hell cares who's reading it?! Like I just said, I miss blogging and it'll give me something extra to do. So I just wanted to pop the blogspot/blogger cherry with this entry, as well as revive my well overdue account. More thoughts coming up later. I welcome you all to my new blog!

Ciao!